phantym_56: (ed - model)
I have been in a foul mood most of today. Started with being the only one in the family to go to work. Then we had to push the car off the drive so Dad could go to the doctor (apparently has a kidney stone, we're waiting for the hospital to call) but it's a big car and the drive is slippery and that's how old people die on the news, de-icing cars with the engine running and in gear - I hate pushing cars around on ice.

Then the snow/ice was hard to walk on and my footchains fell off within twenty yards and I was running late and then really really angry. Then Boss's Feisty Mother came in, also in a bad mood and that just made me worse.

And then skipping breakfast because I didn't have time for it this morning and then lunch because I was at work (I don't like eating at work, particularly when there are other people in the kitchen, even if they're nagging me to eat and saying there's hardly anything of me) finally caught up with me this afternoon. My hypos tend to happen because I've eaten something, not because I haven't but I was vaguely aware of feeling a bit light-headed and confused and when the Chief Accountant asked me to copy an email to [Name], I asked "Is that our [Name] or their [Name]?" and she said "I don't think they've got a [Name]..." (They meaning one of our suppliers). I decided not to bother saying "Yes they do, and so have [Other Supplier], they're everywhere!" and I'm glad I didn't say it because ten minutes later, it dawned on me that she was absolutely right and what on Earth was I thinking? And that was the second "what was I thinking?" moment in ten minutes. I just couldn't think straight at all. Definitely time to go and have some sugar before I tried to carry on with any more work.

And then, the Chief Accountant's husband came to pick her up when the office closed early and she was taking other people back too and although in all truth, I would probably have refused, it would have been nice to be offered a lift, since there are a tiny handful of us who live very near each other and I'm one of them!

And I'm tired because kidney stones mean Dad's up every ten minutes during the night and he woke the resident insomniac and I was then awake for two hours in the middle of the night and I these days, tiredness kicks me the very next day, instead of the day after like it used to.

But now I'm home early and I'm going to have something to eat and I'm already feeling a lot more cheerful.
phantym_56: (bryan - jake)
This is a hard one. What do I aspire to be or to do? Not a lot. I take things as they come. I'm not one for the forward planning, the hopes and dreams. I live my life on impulse. At the moment, anyway. Should probably make plans: plans for a better-paid job, plans for a home of my own and an ability to pay the bills at the same time as being impulsive sometimes, plans for a pension (get nagged about this one fairly regularly). But at the moment, the impulsive thing is working for me.

Total cop-out of an answer, I know, but I'm completely shattered. I slept for three hours this afternoon/evening. Meant to just warm up a bit after getting frozen half to death sledging out on the hills but it seems I also tired myself out doing it, hence the need for lots of sleep and now I'm headachey-tired and need to go to bed. I feel a bit guilty for every single day going "I'm tired!" but I do tend to leave meme-answering until it's late and tiredness happens at the end of the day. I should post earlier while I've still got my energy.

Goodnight. Falling asleep at the computer.
phantym_56: (nick doody)
Right now, what upsets me is this:

Old Rope Monday - @andrewismaxwell Milton Jones @RobinInce @NickDoody etc

From Twitter.

Nick Doody and Milton Jones are in my Top Four comedians and Andrew Maxwell is easily in my Top Ten and I want to go so much and I can't! It starts at 7.30 and I know from experience that it's not possible to get to central London by 7.30 if I leave work at 5.00pm and I have no more holiday time. Some bastard has gone "Who are Phantym's favourite comedians? Let's sprinkle them all over a show she can't go to!! Mwahahaha!!"

So that's what upsets me today. Bastards!

Oh well. Sometimes Lady Luck shines down with her golden light of fortune - sometimes Fate needs a helping hand. As it happens, Nick Doody will be at Godless Christmas on Wednesday. I must just shrug and say I saw Andrew Maxwell four times at Altitude and once more at his own tour a week later so don't go getting upset that you'll miss him on Monday and that I'll see Milton Jones one day when the time is right. Serene... (Nothing against Robin Ince, I'll see him on Wednesday but he isn't in my Top Ten.)

Shall I do my Top Ten? I muse on my Top Four occasionally because I genuinely don't know what order to put them all in but I don't tend to think beyond that.

My Top Ten Comedians. Or Top Seven plus eight Honourable Mentions )
Snowchains for feet. I have made a second one so I don't have to hop )
Going out dressed oddly and jewellery )
I should go to bed. I'm a little tired. Quite tired, actually. Slept really well the last two nights. Further evidence that my cold is a nice ordinary one - after one day, I was pretty much better, my nose is behaving itself reasonably well already and by Monday I should have forgotten I ever had it. Hello wonderful immune system, I've missed you! *hugs immune system*
phantym_56: (ed - lawnmower)

My beloved Rangers failed to turn up for the third time this term tonight. I drive 12 miles each way and it angers me to do that and then find they've not only not turned up but not bothered to tell me they're not turning up. Three times in one term. That really didn't help me feeling abandoned and let down.

So I came home and got on with some work. I came back from lunch today going "You know what would be handy? Snow chains... for shoes..." So I spent the afternoon planning and drawing and went to B&Q for some chain on the way to Rangers and that's what I've been doing.

Making hundreds of pairs of earrings from wire in no way qualifies one to work with heavy-duty galvanised chain but I got there eventually. I have grated silvery stuff all over my bed and my fingers ache from the effort of prising the loops open but I have produced a snow chain for my welly. Only one. It took far more chain than I expected and I don't have enough left to make a second one. The design needs some modification; it was fine while I was building it but when I took it off and tried to put it back on again, it went a bit pear-shaped. It won't quite fit properly and keeps sliding down at the back and on the toe. Slightly longer links on the sides are needed, I think. But for a first attempt at semi-serious metalwork, I don't think it's too bad at all.

Pictures of my home-made snow chains fitted to my welly boot )

They don't look too bad, do they? My wellies, you may notice, are quite badly worn. Have you ever seen worn-out wellies? Did you know such a thing was possible? No, neither did I. And my mother can laugh but just wait until the next snowfall when I stride out confident on my be-chained feet while she slithers around. Of course, if the next snowfall can wait until I've built a second one and made a few minor modifications, that would be lovely.

Incidentally, the boy who sold me the chain in B&Q told me "Have a good night". I don't know what he thought I was planning to do with chains but I bet it wasn't what I actually did with it.


Dec. 3rd, 2010 09:48 pm
phantym_56: (ed - sleeeepy)
All this week, I've come home from work and been too completely exhausted to do anything. It's been particularly noticeable since Wednesday, since I was out Monday and Tuesday. But yeah, since Wednesday I've been tired out. It probably doesn't help that I haven't been sleeping too well this week - not badly enough to call it insomnia and get upset about it, just not being able to get to sleep until later than I'd like and then waking up in the night because I'm either too cold or too hot. Also, it's been what, six weeks, and every now and then I do get reminded of that cough I had for so long. It still shows its ugly head from time to time, mostly when I'm cold or giggly.

I think it's been about two weeks since I decided to cheer the fuck up and it's going pretty well. I'm noticing the difference in real life. I'm happier, I'm doing better, I'm feeling better in my soul. Here, my cheering-up coincided with me deciding to do a 30 Day Meme. My reasoning at the time was that it was something non-whiny to post here regularly, thus saving me the effort of thinking of anything for myself. Obviously, I do still whine but I'm doing it less and there's less abject misery and despair behind it now. But the point is that despite the words "in great detail" tacked onto each prompt, I'm not exactly waxing lyrical on them as a general thing. Partly from lack of interest - some are better than others. I quite enjoy "a moment", more so than "What you wore today" or "Your dreams" (that's tomorrow and going to be short, I can tell that already) - but partly from not having the energy to expend on putting in a great deal of thought.

This isn't a whinepost. This is a hazily thoughtful introspective post. How am I getting on? Yeah, not badly.

I think I mentioned that a colleague and I built a snowman yesterday. Do you want pictures? Bear in mind that we're both apparently grown-ups, neither of us have seen this amount of snow in years and neither of us have ever really built a snowman before and didn't really know what to do. She's not very tall. I sprawled on the ground next to her to have my photo taken - sat on the ground with my arms around her and she was about the same height as me. I'm 5'4" so she's about half my full height. Anyway, she's got an adorably dopey smile and I was genuinely sad to say goodbye to her when we had to go back to work. Her name is Numpty. We were going to name her after Boss's Feisty Mother but she was too cute.

Pictures of the adorable Numpty )
Now the tiredness is really kicking in. I can't write any more. I need to do something gentle and relaxing to keep me teetering on the edge of drowsiness for an hour or so before I'll let myself go to bed. Any earlier than that and I really will have insomnia.

No Snow Day

Dec. 2nd, 2010 08:05 am
phantym_56: (maxwell - black yeti)
We've got snow. Finally. We live in a bubble where the entire rest of the country has had snow but not us. It started late last night and is quite thick tonight. Sister has been banned from going to work; Mum won't let her drive the 20-odd miles and has ensured she can't do it by taking her car. I'm going to have to walk to work. The bosses won't come in. Old Sage Boss & Boss's Feisty Mother said on Tuesday they weren't coming in today (although yesterday it was back to "We don't know yet). One sighting of the snow and it'll be a definite no. And Dearly Beloved Boss had a knee op last week and can't drive so his parents bring him in therefore he won't be coming either. Boss's Sister will invoke the privilege of the Sales Team and decide to work from home today and the rest of us will struggle in (some from far further than the Boss Family) and be stuck there the whole day because there'll be no one with the authority to send us home. Therefore I will be grouchy all day, probably quite cold and increasingly resentful as the day goes on.

But hey! We've got snow and I've got to put wellies on and go and play in it on my way to work!
phantym_56: (bryan - pioneer)
A rare occurrence is occuring. It's snowing in my part of the world! Now, what would be ideal:
The snow to get heavier at about ten o'clock. One of the loveliest things about Old Sage Boss is his tendency to panic and send us home at the first sign of snow.
For Mum to stay at work. This is simply because she's got a cold and I don't want to tell you what happens when she's got a cold, only that I hate it.
For the snow to stop completely by mid-afternoon and be gone by about 6.30 so I can go out to the comedy tonight.
Thank you world.


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